Mom Dad

Ketika mendengar lagu dari The Script ( lagi-lagi The Script ) yeahh cos I really love this band. The Script itu band yang luar biasa menurutku. Ok judul lagunya adalah If You Could see me now,,,nih lirik lagunya.

     “ If You Could See Me Now”

It was February 14 Valentine's Day

The roses came but they took you away

Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm

Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs

Dad you should see the tours that I'm on

I see you standing there next to Mom

Both singing along, yeah arm in arm

And there are days when I'm losing my faith

Because the man wasn't good he was great

He'd say "Music was the home for your pain"

And explained I was young, he would say

Take that rage, put it on a page

Take the page to the stage

Blow the roof off the place

I'm trying to make you proud

Do everything you did

I hope you're up there with God saying "That's my kid!"

[Chorus:]

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me?

Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me?

Would you follow every line on my tear-stained face

Put your hand on a heart that was cold

As the day you were taken away?

I know it's been a while but I can see you clear as day

Right now, I wish I could hear you say

I drink too much, and I smoke too much dutch

But if you can't see me now that shit's a must

You used to say I wont know a wind until it crossed me

Like I wont know real love 'til I've loved and I've lost it

So if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom

And if you've lost a dad then someone's lost a son

And they're all missing out, yeah they're all missing out

So if you get a second to look down on me now

Mom, Dad I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh, oh Would you call me a saint or a sinner?

                                                     Would you love me a loser or winner?

When I see my face in the mirror

We look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Yeah I'm just missing you now

Sumpah saat liat videonya di youtube,,air mata ga kebendung. Video klipnya sih biasa tapi ketika pertama denger tuh lagu dan resapi liriknya,,tes tes air mata netes deh. Lagu ini about how struggle people when they losed someone they loved. Aku memang belum pernah ditinggal selama-lamanya oleh orang yang ku sayang,,hanya saja my parents divorced when I was child,,so since I was eight years old, live without father itu yang harus aku hadapi. Kalaupun aku bahagia,,ya tetap aja kebahagiaan itu, kebahagiaan yang ada cacatnya. Saat yang lain ketika terima rapot bisa menunjukkan kepada ayahnya, aku,,,,yahhh *udahh ahh mulai meloww nih* 

Salut juga sih sama orang-orang yang bisa survive dan mereka mampu melampui masa-masa saat kehilangan orang yang mereka cintai, terutama orang tua. Temanku yani dan mamet, masing-masing dari mereka sudah kehilangan ibu dan ayahnya, but now look at them, mereka happy-happy aja, meskipun aku tahu yani masih susah untuk menerima hal ini. Buat yani dan mamet kalau kalian baca ini, percaya deh orang tua kalian sedang di surga, mungkin sekarang mereka lagi gosipin kalian berdua,,hehehe. 

Harusnya aku benar-benar besrsyukur kedua orang tuaku masih ada, bahkan I have 2 mom’s hahaha of course step mother,,kalau ada yang  tanya, apakah kamu marah dengan kondisi saatmu? Ya,,masa-masa sulit untuk menerima kenyataan ini ada,,aku pernah seperti orang gila disekolah, waktu SD bahkan ga ada yang mau jadi temanku. Ga tahu kenapa mungkin mereka sirik aja hahaha. Tapi benar aku baru bisa menerima hal itu mungkin ketika usiaku 18,,jelang kuliah. I said to my self,,ok anisa it’s time for you to forgive your dad,,,karena aku percaya mereka melakukan hal ini karena alasan tertentu. Yuuppp,,all I do hanya memaafkan dan selalu mendokan,,mendoakan itu yang saya lakukan tiap malam. Kirim surat al fatihah, tidak hanya kepada orang tua kita yang telah meninggal. Tapi meskipun masih hidup kirim saja al fatihah kepada mereka. Mom dad I just missing you now, *nangis*. 

Aku cuman bisa pesan aja,,kalau kalian saat ini living with your parents sayangi mereka,,you really missed them when they’r not in beside you. So…ketika mereka masih ada,,sayangi mereka ga peduli meskipun nyawa kalian harus dikorbankan, buat orang tua kita. 

Ga tahu lagi mau nulis apa lagi,,,tarik nafas dulu yah. Weelll intinya adalah ketika kamu kehilangan seseorang yang kamu sayangi, ini bukan lah akhir dari segalanya. Lihatlah di luar sana masih banyak orang yang jauh kehilangan orang yang mereka cintai,,,dan mereka tetap berjuang untuk hidup. Coretan kata-kata dibawah ini buat kalian yang udah kehilangan orang tua kalian…

Good Night Mom Dad,,what you doing out there? Remembered when I was child, when I was naughtier you will angry, when I was sad,,you guys pray for me. Mom Dad what you doing out there,this is your child,,I don’t know where im goin without you.

Mom Dad look,,im graduated. Mom Dad look,,I have job. Mom Dad look,,I will married. Mom Dad look you have a grandchild. Mom Dad look,,I can reach my dream,,Mom Dad can you see me now. Mom Dad im just missing you now,,can you see me from heaven. Tell to God that’s my kid,take care of her/him God.

Udah itu aja yah,,,huhhh *hela nafas sambil nyeka air mata*  apapun orang tua kalian, kondisinya bagaimanapun be proud of them. Love You mom and dad,,from your child.